I'll rip apart everything I have. Tear myself down to build a stronger version. I'm tired of the weakness and insecurities. I'm tired of wanting to turn the inside out.

I want everything to just be the way it should be. I want my smile to visit more. Not just the simple one but the one I had today. The one showing pure joy and happiness to be alive and to be loved. I want to see laugh lines instead of frown lines. I want to keep feeling the pain in my belly that i get from laughing too hard.


I want the world to change.
But that's not possible.
It's too big.
I can only change what is around me.

I changed myself and the process is continuing. I changed my situation. I changed a mind.

I changed a decision.

There is so much I want to say.